On Saturday, my husband and son took off for a guy’s day trip for most of the day. That left me with a morning all to myself which is a rare occurrence. I chose to relax for the first half of the morning and then go clothes shopping. I had some credit at a local consignment shop that I wanted to use so off I went.
Here’s the thing about clothes shopping and me. I really dislike shopping in general. But, clothes shopping has always been the absolute worst. There have been many shopping trips when I drove home with nothing and in tears. I hardly ever shopped because it took a long time to emotionally heal from the last trip.
You see, I have hated my body for a very long time. I have covered it with frumpy clothes for the same amount of time. I wanted to hide behind all my clothes. It didn’t matter if I was fit and active or not. The disdain for my body was still there.
In recent months, I have been on a pretty awesome journey of healing. I have been processing why I felt such hatred for my body for so long. In a nut shell, it comes down to a past abusive relationship that left me feeling useless, worthless, and ugly. My path of healing will be a post or a series of posts in the future.
As I am continuing to heal I am also learning to love and nurture my body. I am learning how to dress in a way that is not a shameful cover. And I am learning how to dress in a way that fits my personality.
Okay, back to Saturday. It was time to drive to the consignment store. I was actually excited about it. This was totally new. Fall is starting to whisper to us just a little bit and I couldn’t wait to find a new pair of jeans and some cute tops. It was going to be a good time. I was determined.
But, then when I pulled into my parking spot at the store and I felt the same ‘ole tightness in my chest I always felt before shopping. That tightness that told me that shopping was pointless and I might as well just go back home and put my sweats on. I was on the verge of tears….again.
And then everything changed…
Took a deep breath.
Closed my eyes.
Then said, “Sarah. You are a Daughter of the King. He made you beautiful. He gave you a Purpose. It is time to walk into that Destiny. Don’t cover what He calls Good. Go in there and Adorn HIS Creation.”You are His. Don't Cover. Adorn yourself like Royalty. Click To Tweet
Y’all, it was like a light switched on.
I got out of the car and marched into that store with a purpose and a mission.
Instead of walking in there already defeated, I walked in there ready to take on the challenge. I was determined to find at least one outfit that I loved, looked good in, challenged my usual style, and reflected me. This was going to be an adventure.
It took a lot of trips to the dressing room but I ended up buying a much-needed gym shirt, a pair of skinny jeans, a cute t-shirt, and a pair of cute shoes with a cute pop of color.
I didn’t get a whole new wardrobe on Saturday. It was one outfit. I think this was one of the most successful shopping trips ever because the power of words turned body hatred anxiety into confidence and purpose in my clothing.
I am already planning a shopping trip for next month so I can replace a few more pieces in my wardrobe.
The power of words is astounding. A horrible situation was turned on a dime by feeding myself positive, life-giving words. And then I CHOSE to believe the words I said to myself.
Defeat was turned into Victory.
Do you love shopping? Or, is shopping hard for you?
What can you say to yourself to make that shopping trip awesome?