I am giving up.
I am a failure.
This is good for them.
But, it is not good for me.
I am not good at anything.
Nor am I good for anything.
I am not talented.
I am regular.
I am average, at best.
I am not pretty.
I have no motivation.
I will never reach my goals.
What’s the point?
The list goes on and on. These are all things I told myself on a daily basis. I woke up each morning with an elephant on my chest as I prepared to face the day. It was just going to be another day of hearing these words in my mind and deep in my soul.
I am a dreamer. I have always been a dreamer. I daydreamed my way all the way through school. I dreamed of all the world changing things that I would do. I spent my days in the company of world changers like Oskar Schindler, William Wilberforce, Anne Frank, Abraham Lincoln, and Corrie ten Boom. I had notebooks and notebooks full of all my plans. They were full of stories that I would one day publish. My dreams were vast and amazing… when I was a kid.
Then I started to grow up and experience the realities of this fallen world. I heard words spoken to me by people I believed to be friends and lovers. These were words of condemnation and judgment. These were words that destroyed my dreams bit by bit. They choked the very life out of my imagination and my desire to live.
I have lived in this place for quite some time. And it is time to quit. It is time to reclaim the joys of my childhood dreams and to make them come true. It is time to give up
And I invite you to join me …
I Am Fighting For My Life
Words have held me captive for years and years and years. I have believed the lies I was told that I was nothing and I was bound for mediocrity. I became a victim and I made those words true. I created a self-fulfilling prophecy. And that took me to some pretty dark places.
I heard it once said that you can’t stop a bird from landing on your head but you can stop a bird from building its nest there. I have a pretty epic bald eagle nest built in my hair. I am completely responsible for hearing and believing these words and then creating my self-defeating tendencies.
And I am dismantling that nest starting today.
I am giving up on this mediocre life that I have built over the years.
I am giving up on trying to fight these lies and instead I am reclaiming my life for victory.
I am fighting for me.
I am starting new.
I am giving up on the old way of living because I am worth it.
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I Am Fighting For My Family.
I have the most supportive family in the world. They have been right by my side and supported every single crazy notion I’ve ever had. They considered me to be a superhero even when I had given up and thrown my tattered cape away.
My family poured life giving words over me and never stopped even when I deflected those words because I never felt worthy of them.
But, here’s the thing! My family deserves ME! They deserve ALL of me. And I am willing to fight for them. They have fought for me all these years and I am going to fight for them now.
I am giving up because my husband married me because he saw my soul, fell in love, and pursued me to marriage. I gave him me, but not all of me. I had built way too many walls. It’s time to give up and let him have me in my entirety.
I am giving up for my son. He does not need a perfect Mom but he needs an authentic Mom. He needs a Mom who believes truth and lives truth. He needs a Mom who can and will coach him in excellence and how to be successful. He needs a Mom who can and will speak truth and identity over him because she first knows her own truth and identity.
I am giving up on the old way of living because my family is worth my whole self.
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I Am Fighting For My Friends
Do you know how often I hear or read self-defeating words come out of the mouths of others? You would be surprised. Or, maybe not.
As I became more aware of the pit I dug for myself I became aware of how prevalent this problem is.
And guess what? It has made me MAD! I am flaming mad!
WHY have we allowed so many women, who once dreamed big, to fall into a place of mediocrity of their own making??
Does that stir something in your heart? Does that make you uncomfortable? It should!
This isn’t right! We were all created to do some pretty awesome things and we have become our own worst enemies.
I can’t accept that. Nope, not going to do it.
I am claiming victory!
I am giving up on the old way of living because you are ALL worth fighting for.
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I Am Fighting For My Dream
Oh my! Remember how I said that I have always been a dreamer and that I had notebooks full of stories. And that I also had an imagination that carried me through my childhood. I still live in that world of imagination. There is even a soundtrack. There has got to be a reason for how my brain works.
I have dreamed of writing for pretty much as long as I can remember. I write voraciously, but in private. “Why, in private, “ you say? Because I never believed that anyone would ever want to read my words. I believed that my voice was not worth being heard.
Ummmm….to Hell with that. I am casting those lies to Hell where they belong.
I am giving up on the old way of living because I was created to be a writer. It is time to allow that barely flickering flame to grow into a raging bonfire.
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I Am Fighting For My Savior
It is time for full disclosure. I am a passionate follower of Jesus Christ. He is my Savior and my Everything. He is the only reason I am still alive today. My relationship with Him permeates everything that I do and everything that I write.
But, you see. I have allowed all those ugly words to build walls between Him and me. I just couldn’t believe that He loved me that much.
I am giving up on the old way of living because Jesus has made it abundantly clear that He does LOVE me so very much. He fought for my soul by dying on the cross for all my sins and he continues to fight for my heart each and every day.
It is time for me to truly hear the words of LOVE he has for me. And it is time for me to walk into the Identity and Destiny that He has set in place for me.
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I believe in freedom. And I believe that by giving up we gain the freedom to be the whole person we were each created to be.
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Join me. Let’s take this journey into our destinies together. I do not claim to have all the answers. I am learning too. I don’t know about you. But, I am so sick and tired of the old life that I am giving that up and starting over.
Let this wild and wonderful adventure begin. It’s going to be a wild ride, y’all.
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